Rush hour

Currently at home feeling extra sickly and i can't wait for the following 3 weeks to be over. 

Going to be having 3 tests next week, with 2 and 1 the following weeks respectively, and studying for them has been a huge chore. 

Here's the last time i went out to properly have fun. I forgot when this was, probably last Friday, when Rachel, Kim and I went to the national museum after our paper!!!! It was super impromptu because we literally decided just that morning, but i'm so glad we went cause it was so interesting!!!

We went to the singapore history one first, and it was really cool, i think we spent a good 3 hours in there? 

This was actually the more "boring" section for me because I was more interested in the japanese occupation and on. 

And, here we are!!!!!! Syonan-to! (-: 

There was something about the red walls, and the black and white photos of the Mr Lee Kuan Yew that really stirred the inner proud singaporean in me! Something about that whole section about how singapore got her independence seemed extremely solemn, but i think it was just me LOL

And that ended our day at the museum!!!! Officially learnt my lesson, going to pack lighter the next time we go.

And just throwing in this photo cause i really like the lights hehe

Really praying for my nose and throat to get better soon AHHHHH
Happy weekend everyone!

Night babbles 2

Today, there was the dean's list presentation. I didn't go because I was lazy to sit through the entire thing since the entire thing would only end around 5-ish. I wanted to go home, try and study for NM, and laze around in bed. Which I did in the end anyway. But thinking about all that now, I feel like all those were excuses to hide my subconscious mind, if I even make any sense. Correct me if i'm wrong. 

I wasn't tired at all. I didn't even sleep the entire ride home despite my mere 3 hour sleep the night before. I wasn't lazy - ok fine, maybe that, yes. But i didn't want to study at all, i just wanted to laze around and watch my dramas. My point is, I didn't want to go not because of all those reasons i've stated beforehand. 

I didn't want to go because I didn't want to be reminded of all that I am.. Not. 

I remember the first few weeks of school, the second week I believe. I was walking with a bunch of friends along the H block corridors on the 3rd floor, where they displayed that list of names on the dean's list. I vividly remember myself telling them that i want to get on that list, that I wanted my name there. I wanted to go up and get my certificate. I wanted to finally do well, I wanted to do my parents proud. Everything seemed to be going pretty well, until my results came back for semester 1 and it seemed as though all hope was lost - is lost. To be very frank, even right now, even as I study my ass off for every percentage that contributes to my overall GPA, i fear so so so badly that i may not be able to do my conversion eventually. I always tell myself that my increase is coming, that I am improving, that it's only going to get better, that things may seem bleak right now but my God has planned my future. And it shall be bright and prosperous. But hey, no one promised a life without troubles. I guess i'm just thankful for One who will walk my troubles with me, for me. I think i really need to get a few things drilled into my head.

1) I do not need the validation of anyone else but my God Himself.

2) My grades do not define who I am as a person.

3) When I am faithless, He is faithful.

4) God uses the inexperienced. 

5) His plans are good, and His timing is perfect. 

ok i probably sound very messy and incoherent once again, but i can't be bothered to proof read it cause it's a babble for a reason. Good night. 

Happy Hump Day

Just realised today that people actually read this space, and i'm quite freaked out because like i haven't told anyone that i'm back to blogging. So you people who are reading this right now, are either people who have been continually refreshing my link hoping that i'd come back to blogging secretly one day like what i'm doing now, or strangers who "happened to chance on my blog". Oh, or you're just one of those people (like me) who stalk others' social media handle on every other social networking platform just to snoop through their lives. 

Oh well, whoever you are, hello! 

It's test week this week, and i have 3 tests spread out across this week, which is both a pain and a blessing. I like to think of it as the latter. I mean, at least we have more time to study in between, no? Also just in case you're one of those who would scrutinise every photo i upload on this platform, no, i am not a left-hander. I just needed to take this photo with my right hand LOL. 

Despite it being hell week - ok, SEMI hell week, tiny things have been helping me get through all the other humps of the respective days. 

1) My Fayth Label Eloise bucket bag! It was finally back in stock and i ordered it the next morning when i woke up, and got myself one in black. It looks exactly like the Mansur Gavriel bucket bag, which is probably at least 10 times more expensive than this baby i got, minus the gold detailing, but i'm so happy with it! 

Also, second fridays of the month mean varsity nights! Studied at starbucks for a bit and i only realised a lot later on that this was on the sleeve! I kept it, AHAHAH. I really like keeping starbucks sleeves, especially the navy blue ones from i forgot when. 

Saturday mornings also meant the most random late night calls talking about the most girly things - boys ~, then waking up at 11 the next morning to the sun shining directly at your face because you don't have curtains up just yet. Speaking of which, i've gotten blinds and they'll be installed next week or something! 

Sundays were the best days, and Pastor Prince's sermon was so on point. This is a section from sermon that weekend that i caught and really stuck with me. 

People sin because they are sinners. They aren't sinners because they sin. They are sinners because of Adam's sin. But by the obedience of one Man, we are made righteous. While we are sinners, we could not undo our sinnership by what we did right. We needed to be born again! Now that we are saved by one Man's obedience, what makes us think that we can undo the work of Jesus by one sin? We have a higher regard for Adam's work  sometimes. But the work of Jesus is forever. Not by your obedience or my obedience, but the obedience of Jesus.

The skies have been absolutely gorgeous lately, i feel like it might have to do with the monsoon season. Not loving the rain when i'm out because it's wet and it gets really cold, but when it rains at night..... w o w.

Have been thoroughly enjoying school food because we've been frequenting South canteen and SIT a lot more during our breaks even though they're not that long AHAHAHA what risk takers we are. But somehow, we are able to complete our meal and all within an hour and make it back to lectures at the other wing on time so props to us! 

I felt really sad today after getting home, not really sure why. I just can't wait for this semester to end.

Today's just one of those days i miss my friends more than i usually do. )-: It's been a whole semester and a half, and at times i still feel oddly out of place. It's getting a little tiring to fit in, and i eventually figured that things tend to be way easier when i just go solo. I don't even know what to say anymore, it's just that everything has been pretty bleugh, and at times i feel more alone than ever. It sucks but i guess that's how i got to becoming more independent. Here's to me eating alone in public one day. 

Happy hump day! Tomorrow will be a better day! 

NOvember

Got to admit, November has treated me pretty well. It's only the 10th, and looking back, so many good things have happened that i should be thankful for. 

I guess it's just today that made it seem as though my entire month had been horrible.

This above is my favorite okawa rice from Yonehachi at Takashimaya.

Today had been extremely extremely unproductive which really dampened my spirits a lot. But what to do right, i mean i just wasted a perfectly good public holiday. Then again, tomorrow is a new day, and i can start tomorrow. #positivethinking

Meditating on 2 Sam 22:33 today. 

God is my strength and power and He makes my way perfect. 

And yes, indeed He is, and indeed He does. 

Night babbles 1

It's 01:09 now and I am strangely awake. It's so odd, seeing how I was dozing off in both lectures earlier in the day and sleeping the entire journey back to Tampines from school. Have been watching my Korean drama the entire day ever since I got back and like one issue that has been bugging me ever since I started watching "I Have a Lover" is whether cheating can ever be justified, when is it considered cheating, and is it really possible? To "fall" for the "wrong person"? Can one really not help it? Are the feelings of an adulteress valid? Why or why not? Is the adulteress then supposed to hold back her feelings? Shouldn't she be given an equal chance at "true love"? I'm actually really curious. If we're fighting for an equal chance to love, in terms of LGBT, then why can't these "third parties" be given an equal shot at what may be their "true love"?

I need a holiday

Bouge Boutique Cafe

308 Tanglin Road, Phoenix Park, #01-01

Great Eastern Women's Run 2015
I actually just checked my race timings and my net time is 37:15:82, which is much faster than i expected, because i just really wanted to hit below 45min, considering how i took about 50min the last time i ran 5km, but i did it! It's crazy though, because i walked quite a fair bit. Gonna start running again this weekend, because i really want to get into running! Plus i really want to join the Standard Chartered run next year ho ho ho. 

I'm honestly just so so tired right now. It's only about 11pm but i shall sleep now.