2 0 1 5

2015 had been a really extreme year, considering how my highs have been really high, and how my lows have been really low. This year, i felt like the happiest person in the world, so many times, and yet there have been times when i really hit rock bottom and basically felt like a lump of gudetama-like shit.

I feel like this entire year just went by so so so quickly. It's crazy how so many things happened this year, and i am so so thankful for all of them. AHAHHA was just mentally listing all the things in my head, and i just realised that i've been to 3 concerts and 3 countries this year. LOL just putting that out there really randomly cause 3 is the number of perfection lulzies. Just feel like since i have other "2"s right now, my third will be amazing cause 3rd time's the "charm" ay AHHAHA i feel like i'm getting too much into numerology here but ok all that aside now!

This year like i mentioned, i've been to 3 concerts and 3 countries. Like, how blessed! Somehow the Lord just kept supplying la and i'm so very thankful! This year, i've made new friends, had new experiences, tried out sooooo many new things, and achieved a lot. I've gotten through so many trials and the fact that i've gotten through every single one of them is so encouraging to me! It just further proves the realness of God!

Honestly, i don't even know what else to say. I'm honestly worried about what may come in 2016. It scares me!!!! But again and again and again, He reminds me that it is He who holds my future. Hello hello Jer 29:11!!!!! 2015 is the year of His restoration, and i just know for sure that even if the Year of Restoration ends, His restoration will never end. Still believing in the restoration in my life, def.

I'm quite happy with how 2015 turned out though. More than anything else, i got stronger through 2015. Maybe not physically LOL but emotionally, definitely. God has been so good la. Trial after trial after trial, really upsetting but He still got me through every single one, be it through people around me - friends or family, and even through church, through worship. His love overflows.

Ending and starting the new year with this verse that my VGL shared awhile back which i'll be holding on to this for the rest of 2016. Very excited for what the new year holds, because i know that it shall be good (-:

Isaiah 43:18-19 NKJV

Do not remember the former things,

Nor consider the things of old.

Behold, I will do a new thing,

Now it shall spring forth;

Shall you not know it? 

I will even make a road in the wilderness

And rivers in the desert.

Noel, Noel

Night babbles 4

Daddy God tonight had been a really good night. Sharing my heart and my journey was slightly liberating. Just realised that I might not have gotten my point across but I really just believe that my restoration will come even if 2015 is coming to an end in 6 days. His year of restoration may come to an end but His restoration never ends. ☝🏻

Also tonight made me a ball of feels because of the familiarity that's developing, because of the moments of "I need to impress", because of that tinge of sadness upon hearing of the graduation. Still not sure where this is going nor am I sure of what's even going to come out of this, but hey Lord take all these man I'm letting go. 

Speaking of letting go, shared the analogy that Keegen shared once, about how when you let go of all the things in your hands, they fall into the hands of our God, our God who upholds us. I hope it speaks to some because I really do like that analogy. 

Night babbles 3

Currently on my bed eating a pack of purple jagabee because I'm hungry and tired. Was just randomly watching snaps and things like that and like i don't know I feel like such an old foggie for having such thoughts regarding relationship boundaries and things like that, like I'm so judgey haiyo but I was literally just like "GuUUuUrrLllLllLllL really" at people LOL. Then again, it's them so oh well, I mean, I'm happy that I have my own set of principles and beliefs, and if they don't and if they do but they just don't match up with mine then... Who am I to do anything really. Plus been there done that time to be more accepting la Weiling. I mean, I do have friends who don't hold the same beliefs as I do (and when I say beliefs I do not mean just religion, but just everything in general - morals, values, etc) but I can very safely say I'm definitely not as close to them as my other friends. It just seems a teeny weeny bit harder to connect? I guess? Ok I'm starting to seriously babble goodnight time to sleep. 

Hebrews 11:1 (NLT)

"Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about the things we cannot see."

hello everyone this is my 3-weeks-worth-of-life-updates post.

Chillin' at the top of Star with Das after 3rd service with chicken and sushi 

surprise dinner at Big Eater for Try's birthday

(hehe)

Thai dinner with jerlyn and kim after 6 weeks (':

stuDIED in NLB. Shall go there more often. Just discovered a whole range of amazing RG books there for reference! Also look at the amazing view la!!!! 

More food!!!! Bak Kut Teh at Song Fa on a rainy Saturday with my fambam.

Best friend surprised me in sch and everyone made me very happy that day hehe.

More birthday treats, Hot Tomato with Rachel (nts get your sirloin medium next time) and complimentary starbucks cake!!! 

More birthday food with Winnie at Koh's Grill (-: Also anyone who goes to Koh's Grill, try something else other than the yaki udon cause it was pretty yaki. Hahahahhahahahahhahahahahhahahahhahaha. 

Ok it wasn't horrible per se but it wasn't amazing. And i really do like my udon! But do give it a try i guess!!!! I really like their garlic rice though. Garlic rice > yaki udon!!!!! HAHAHHA

3rd again as per usual with Dasrene and Rev Col Stringer preached that day! (The photo's of Pastor Lawrence though LOL) Super powerful word about speaking in tongues and the Holy Spirit. He's a really adorable man, and i enjoyed his sermon a lot hehe. 

I think that area right at the top of Star is becoming our place. Also, the deep fried squid was friggin amazing i love it!!!!!!

Guess who's going for Hillsong concert tomorrow!!!!! Even though i'm pretty sure it's going to be an overwhelming crying worship fest thing (in a good way) after all that has happened.

yup, definitely becoming our place. 

Family dinners make me really happy, especially when my aunt and cousins join us hehe.